This blog is so outdated! Seriously i haven’t blog for a long damn time! *eh-watch your language!!”

Anyway- I wish for a interesting event happen and it happen. My life is complicated now. SEE!!No wonder people say , “be careful of what you wish for”.  Further more- I have discovered a few stuff about myself!!

Fact 1#

- When i don’t smile, My face would be very serious- in other words- i don’t look very friendly AT ALL¬

Fact 2#

- When i’m too happy, i just say whatever that come across my mind at that moment¬

Fact 3#

- I think too much about what people will think of me¬

Fact 4#

- When i really need to eat, i hold myself- because i don’t like be fat, if i’m fat- my mom will kept thinking about me fat.

It’s has been a very long time I Never been writing here it’s seem like it’s has been a year..even though I just left the computer for a week or so. When I getting back to Malaysia, my heart was full of excitement. Thinking about what were happening there while I was here wanting for the time flowed as usual. Now I realized that…. I was quiet dumb worrying too much stuff around me without even thinking of enjoying myself  XD. When I was there, I was hoping that someone or something will greet me  when I came back to my Hometown^^. But it’s not gotta happen, I thought, All I think of that time was to shout out about how I missed so much of my hometown, the attitude of people around me, the warmth of the weather in my mind. All has been just like a dream-. I woke up and realized I was still in the airplane, the length till KL is still about 8 km or so. I can’t continue my sleep that night. Because of some ridiculous brats behind my sits was so annoying, they just some teenagers- that just wanted attention by the way,where the heck is they parents?! They children kept pushing  the damn button and release a large sound .. well that actually a “need help” thigy button. But they need not help because they are not OKU!!!

|||||||||However, that time was about 4.30 in the morning. I was watching the Guy that sit at the left of my front passenger. He is opening his laptop. Guess what video his watching?? It was Naruto! I never expecting an serious look guy would watching it!! After that- He  continue watching the anime of the Great Rubber Boy!! Happy as usual, I opened my headphone and hearing all the Japanese song. Well, I am addicted to Japanese stuff . So – let just skip to the other part of the story.||||||

I was expecting a call from friends or a reply letter from my friends also but.. seem like everything was swept away like a dream.. A dream that kept me stay in this unknown world. All of this dream is my inspiration that kept me alive. Everytime I seem to do something just to let the time passed without me counting it everytime in my heart. I expected a lot of stuff for my returned. Everything- is just a dream, a fantasy  but was this Friendship and memories was it just a – a play? The day I returned was the day was full with pouring water, the water that symbolized my awakening sense.

I felt very happy when I had returned to my own town- the place that I had been borned- added with the warmth of the surroundings that kept me alive. All that I been thinking was- can I help myself to forget the past and get on with the future. Without even get the feeling of getting hurt? Will I survived? Will everbody accept my – feelings? The truth always hurt- that what they told me, and that right. But sometimes we just had to accept it. I had sent so many messages to my dear friend Mona, but all I get was none replies but only a typical profile that I always saw. silents-with colors, motionless but accompany by the computer screen.

I watch the sky – the pouring rain made me felt alive nothing more that can made me relieve about my actions. Now all I need  was a slight of happiness to kept my life continue. But I know that I will stay the Quiet profile within me, I will still be the mysterious girl that people always seen. Reading story books- making me felt that I started a new life, a adventurous, when We read a story book it’s seem like a diary of life which made us truly felt that it’s really happen when it wasn’t.I watch the sky- it’s typical as any sky that u seen around the world, but still- it’s accompanying us to go through our life, till the day we get old and die when we asleep with no pain that can been heard of.We just can’t take it anymore but Life is just like a RPG game, if u stuck in the middle of the game, surely u will lose, so kept going- but don’t use violent actions against other player. Huh- a RPG real life game? yeah, interesting but what could be more interesting than finding the true path where we should go right now- where should we go now?Just like the Garth Nix – the book of death say.

‘ Is the walker choose the path, or the path the walker??”

2 days left before the last day of school after tomorrow it’s going to be the last day of school. I don’t know what to say, should I be happy or sad? I going to be go back to my country and I going to be happy but being nothing at home and having vacation for 4 days before departing seem a sad thing. I don’t even know what to think about. I finished my novel about 2 times. And now I am memorizing the song for my class assembly. We gotta sing “Forever” by Chris Brown. So I memorizing it now.

I can’t smile. Which is the main problem about me, I can’t smile if they has nothing to laugh about. I just too serious sometimes. I love school. I do, you may think school is pointless but sometimes you think is very fortunate of you for having to learn the meaning of friendship and being fall in love, we gain that all in school, everything happen the same thing, you may hate it but there had a small thing that made you miss it. I love books. I can read a book that are until 400 pages in a day or an evening. I always being a book maniac lover, i GONE mad when I was searching the book that I like. But sometimes I prefer a interesting adventure Quest that full with magics¬!! I love music. When I hear a R&B music I always think if I can dance according to the beat. But, I just can’t.

I love Japan and Anime. Anime mostly from Japan making me know they culture and it’s also making me love Japan. I sometimes think if I could have a Japanese Friend but I know that I just going to be the lamest person they going to meet. Not that a lie actually, when I met them I going to be the first person to giggle the most. I am just too..fanatic. Well sometimes. However, here a little secret=I love my watch. My watch been buy on KLIA, same day as I going to depart to the outside country. That time there a bunch of Japanese student tour there. I just suddenly kept smiling and suddenly I notice there got a nice spiky hair-cute-guy who standing all alone. Gosh, If only I could ask his number. He seem quiet.

I hate being left out- and being underestimate.I know my personality ain’t that strong but I confidence on my sense of direction. emm.. not exactly but kinda. I don’t felt confidence in my love life, because I never had any but I going to wait- for the right person of course. I always seem to be quiet -quiet but actually I talk alot. I dunno why, but I seem to talk alot in the bust- more motivate XD and I don’t even know why.

Everyone has a little dirty secret. Let me tell you my- well I don’t really like somebody for real sometimes. I mean .. That I never ever fall in love, because I think I like them but not I love them and swear to gave them my heart just to be loyal and all that stuff.I just like they, well as a friend of course, as a person for entertain me, or acquaintance. I actually not even sure about all this feeling. My feeling is easy to change so my partner had to be.. someone. I not even tell you who I like now because I am not sure about my feeling. 2 People known this but not the other people. I gotta kick your ass if you tell anyone about my dirty little secret. LOL~

Well people kept saying that Gemini is very talkactive- loved in flirting game- and always played to be hard to get- and always have the inconstant feeling or environment and it’s need something to interesting her. Well I don’t know if I like that somehow however, I do love my zodiac personality it’s seem interesting.

But today is just damn hard day for me talk because I had a cold and my ear can’t hear very clearly so I had to talk very loud sometimes. Not to mention – after a few days than I am off to home town which is a very exciting for me, even though I felt bored but going back to my originally came is the best because We suits ourselves easily.Not to mention, when I ” Achh~oo!” Everybody turned around and looked at me then the Korea girl laugh at my sneeze, I smile gently at her and feeling embarrassed for my Sickness of course, I just hope I get well soon and gained a very good result in my SAT exam. Just hope~

Somehow, the day before yesterday, my friend were asking if I and Epothus is addicted to anime. Epothus say something which I can’t hear very clearly then my friend nodded and started to say, ” Do you know that my cousin who is 18 years old is still watching anime..” *in a teasing tone I think*

Then I skip into the conversation and say that, ” What wrong with that? Everybody..” (I was trying to say everybody got their own interest and she just shouldn’t just judge everybody by their interest, and trying to act like a adult because our time will slowly walk towards the adulthood so no need to fast to fall into adulthood just because you going~ )
But she cut off the line by saying, ” I just .. I just..” She looked at me in the eye, feeling hesitated, and I think that she might thought that I was angry at her which I was trying to express my opinion. Suddenly, other people came and change the subject which is a good thing because the atmosphere was quiet tense that time.

Trust me, Gemini do have inconstant mood but they most likely don’t feel like people who isn’t quiet a listener sometimes. However sometimes I ssaw people is trying to be someone else just to try to be in the group. Well I actually is being myself, being quiet if that not my topic, futhermore, I like anime and people is just seem to be more into dating stuff, and love, plus gossip.

I know Teenager Life is not quiet to be easily like a childhood time. No offence ok? I just saying what happen in my daily life- The Truth always the hardest.~

Life us just always had challenges. which according with the idiom ” No pain, No game”. My oldest sister, she actually still in college, and she change the course but the course letter were so late to arrive and finally she decided to go to work. My parents told her to search for other university instead of going to work as my parents still can afford budget and improvement to the family. But my sister kept saying that, “stop forcing me doing what I don’t want to do.”

However let just moved on to my favourites of the week!

Favourites of the week: “Jody, My friend.” song XD

Review: my classmates, Jody made that song which he sang it and MN sang it and suddenly it stuck in my head XD.

Do you notice that girls more likely to use “HOT” on guys that seem attractive, but I more likely to use ” CUTE”. Toma Ikuta which is My favorite actor of the year after watching his acting in Hana kimi, he really good at it. I admire his acting but I more likely admire Johnny Depp if its come to changing personality which I hardly recognized him in other movies when I saw he acting.

Finally~ funny stuff happen and quiet interesting. During music class, we learned how to act. Me, Ami, ST, and MJ as a group performed what in the script. I was the first one to talk which the line is ” Who say- You could come in?”

Which when we performed in infront of our classmates, I just went out with a frightened opening plus with a hight pitched shouting voice accompany by a sudden hit on the floor with my feet saying- ” Who- say you could come in?” I didn’t felt anything that time just act lol~ my friend gave me a review – I suddenly shouted which made everyone seem puzzled. I was quiet happy when she say that because it made every attention came towards our performances and would not fall asleep and being dis-respect-ful like MN say.

That all I can say for now, who know where life going to lead us furthermore, remember one act can change the whole situations which mean every choice has it’s own consequences so think carefully of what you have to do- Today Report done by “sneezing Kaiyu”.

Today and yesterday on 28 and 29 May, I am just so hyper! I laugh when we just like chasing something- then I laugh when I say something funny well quiet loud actually, after I laugh I just cover my mouth and looked at  people around me.

Then in the morning, I walk to the waiting area which outside the school- and it’s empty, so I yell out,  ” WOO!!!”When I met my friends, I say that I think I am changing now into quiet a crazy person! However, in Geo period class, we played a game called ” 2 truth and a lie”. Quiet fun actually- you just need to guess which is a lie. Well my list of statement is like this:

1) I swim very well.

2) I can change my personality in a split.

3) I allergic to prawns and crabs.

Which is the lie? Number 1 statement.  There some guy say that I had told him, then I looked puzzled, thinking if I ever tell anyone about it. Not to mention, I was very happy because there 4 weeks to go then I’M OFF! (to where? Holiday!)  Now my mission – is to search for my old classmates friends profile! However, I am just lazy to do some revision right now,. all you can heard now is. “Natalie do this-Natalie do that!” SOUND OF YELLING FROM MY PARENTS.. Trust me, that all you can hear from my parents if you in a holiday!

By the way, I really can change my personality into split-sometimes, I am quiet, then I am crazy, then I annoying then I’m a total dumb ass- annoying girl sometimes!

You might had think that this blog is just the same blog like any other blog that about life or something. Sadly to say- it’s the same, like this we can recall what actually had happen in the life and we exactly remember every second that happen in our life – cherish our young life- spend it- but however we just had to fulfill our needs and purpose and find ourselves during this current life-scene. We know we just could  not spin the time again and go back where we left out before. I know I sometimes left a lot of those teenager stuff- however I don’t quiet care because I actually still thinking quiet largely about thing around us- I can’t find my Mr.Right as there no one has the thing that I wanted in them.

~Do you know that  I always  a innocence person? LOL~ just kidding, we aint perfect, everybody makes mistake and that making the clever site came out of them. Sorry I just gotta go, my dad gotta use the computer while he is thinking about spending his time with his language learning and chess board.~

Today Miss Lindy didn’t came- futhermore, mine science teacher didn’t came also.I don’t know why- I JUST wish that our math teacher been change into a teacher who doesn’t look more at the physical properties- same just like the idiom called, ” DON’T JUDGE A BOOK BY IT’S COVER.,” Mine math teacher seem to underestimate me because of my lack english speaker, so she gave me a 3-4 paper. Not to mention, every student in paper 2 almost the most majority is fail but I was passed because I got above 30 and it’s made me feel like left out, you know? The feeling that we can’t stood out to be proud of what we are. The thing is, teacher usually cherish the most smart/ normal student because they don’t want to teach something over and over again to the more- THEY just don’t want to work somehow!. NO OFFENCE- I just talking about my math teacher.

Hard to say- I just think that most of my friends seem to be quite proud of themselves, me, myself just have to hide all the feelings of being proud and just think the consequences of the choices I made, slowly look up to the future of what it had become.

I don’t know what happen today- I just felt very empty.. the emptiness within me. For god sake- why don’t the teachers have an observation on their teaching like in my old school- to know what kind of the teacher would like, or the teaching, the attitude, the motivation, despite all those laziness! You must know what is the best for you Generations! For the future!

Okay now- let just stopped about my opinion.- somehow today is just seem motionless to me. I didn’t run into the school yard and suddenly smash the wall down- well not the wall however. I just don’t get it- I didn’t have the feeling of getting up and ready to opened our minds and learned something. Come on! 4 weeks from now, I will be off to HOLIDAY! Yahoo, I got nice result in France and hoping my science and English will be a nice result too!  I just hope!!!

Sad to say People, I think I didn’t let off my imagination run wild today, I seem to be writing shorter and shorter and you can see, futhermore with basic and no purpose of writing, and just a simple life of every teenager is facing right now. It’s may not be all the teenager seem to be facing the same stuff because some of them may facing they largest challenges. We face challenges to be much stronger than we are now- so we can get used to the environment, that full with high spirits that encourage us to battle on! LIve on- till the next day. REmember the spartans movie? It’s just like the history, I like history actually because it’s interesting. THe past life that happen before us! The memories still stuck! I just think if people will still remember me if I dead somehow,.LOL I can’t say about death right now.

However, Let us see how does the life change- we do hate bad people sometimes right?But if we look at the other perspective view,  I remember the first thing my sister say, “Even though we wanted to have good world and environment, still, we still need bad people so the world won’t be so full with bunch of people same with the natural disaster and why they been invented.. In the other word mean: Everything event happen, has it’s own purpose..”

Today I woke up about 8 am in the morning, then I went to the bath Tub- thinking how fast has the time passed as today is the day is the second day before the start of the school again- ARGH!! Even though the spring holiday is just about a week, but it’s felt like 3 days somehow..

Nah- Here I am again, watching the changing of our lifestyle each day. You may more concentrate about your physical properties sometimes but do we know what inside? I may not the hottest girl you ever met, but believe, I am the girl who kept you guessing sometimes. My weird personality kept on changing because of my horoscope sign is Gemini and my Chinese zodiac is Dog- which made me, a changing personality psycho girl and loyal ~ I think, however that is just a short info about the true me, because Gemini has a lot of personality, you just can’t judge who am I from what I am writing. You may seen me as a long-writing-anime otaku- maniac girl, but actually I more different from what you compared to me from the Internet.

Now is the afternoon time, actually dad suppose to use the computer to finish his work task but he told me that he going to rest awhile but soon he is asleep, So I grab the opportunnity to update my blog as now my parents asleep- no nice program being show, futhermore not interesting activities to be done.

However, I actually more intereted in searching about my health- we know the our from the perpective view at the academic can change our life forever but somehow, our health also can affect our future, the most nicest advice is to take care your whole body- inner and outside? Yup all of it. Somehow if we look at the conclusion of all this decease or dust- we all have decease same with the dust event sample, you clean and the next second you saw some dust on it AGAIN, because the dust is in the air? Okay skip that- I think that incident may fall to some other conclusion however, I just can’t stopped thinking about what happen to me in the future, whenever I ask my friends that what is their ambition, they gave me an answer, if you ask me, I look very uncomfort because I  actually don’t know what I can actually do- because an ambition required certain stuff they needed from us! My parents were hoping for me to become an dentist when I grown up, I do love Science but My math sucks – because I actually don’t fluent much in english and that why it’s happen.

However gotta go~ someone need to use the computer!

Today at 5.35 am in the morning, I woke up. The sun rises- You can see how beautiful is the sunshine is that day. I went downstairs knowing that my parents is gotta woke up late so I made some revision about Science and French- Hoping I will remember all the thing that I need to learn.

I Change my clothes and washes my face as the beginning of the day. Later, My dad invited me to go to the Gym with him – I went there, surely there was so Quiet. I started the Exercise accompanying by the Sound of the music in My ipod. After half and a hour past, I was so tired – asking dad to stopped the Exercise Training For today. We went home- seeing mom just finished surfing the Internet. I can her mischievous smile as for today Shopping.

We changing into our casual clothes- prepared to go shopping in Villagio. Seeing mom how frustrated her look during she was thinking about what kind of Ipod or A hp would she buy. As you know, my mom never change her phone since 8 years, so we gotta made today is Special as it could be. She could buy the things she wanted. We bought a N-series Nokia Phone, Dad was so jealous for mom phone speaker but dad Camera is the Best!

Skip that- Mom actually have a Ipod but Mom have 8 G so she don’t need a ipod so she gave it to me and the old one of Ipod had decided to given to my other sister.

I think I had a fever now- My forehead is hot and My throat is sour. I drank a lot of water because I don’t want to have a fever again!! i WOKE on Saturday in the morning as usual- I bring my water bottle downstairs and started to opened the computer to finished my Post for this time. Dad is installed something in his phone but the Install progress haven’t change since yesterday. I bet he gotta mad at me if he know I am using the Computer and may slower the Progress now. But he is still asleep so Nevermind.

After this Post- I going customise my Blogger blog which I haven’t update for a long time. Wish Me luck Guys! Do you know what? I bought a Magazine today, about Quiz and stuft for 2 Riyals! LOL I think I better shut the secret for myself. Just kidding- then I check some of Science Magazines and it’s cost about 30 until 37 Riyals.

Mom slowly wake up early as I did- but she just fall asleep on the Couch. Thinking she is observing me – for me to avoid pornography stuft maybe. However skip that. I think today is the most Tired Day Ever!!!!!!!!!

“Next thing you know, She hit the Floor!”

That is for Today Quote, as you know all the Year 9 were in Detention and the other guys were playing some football at the other sides of the building. Me- and the others girl were singging that song! ( LOW) That song were stuck on my head like 1 week! I had to say, I never heard of the song but I can memorize it so easily when we join they sing the song. But Today sad- news is Amy going back to China, I had to say she is very happy person!

Well It’s seem today I need a deodorant, I stick today man! That what my mom say, but I kinda get annoy when she made a complain with a joke at the same time. The video is the song that we been singing in the break. Hope you Enjoy It!

Today in the bus, That Guy came back to Noisy Guy Part again! Good-thing, I just hope he didn’t read my Blog that day. Huh, However on the Assembly for today- it’s was the Year7 Assembly! Super interesting! I like the last song they sang- it was the song for Mr Ed who was going away from School. After that- Finish Assembly and Mrs Lindy Came Back after nearly near the Assembly Time, I wishes she is well!

When we in the Bus, waiting to depart from school to Home Journey is Start. As the Bus driver came, so the Journey is Started! The kids beside me getting noising and Noising! Especially the Year 5 Girl is Getting off the Edge again! Urgh! She said to me that she is going to H&M store and if I got anything that I would like her to buy. I say no, and that was a clear answer for her then she say about buying for me what then lastly she told me, she wanted to buy me a Bra. Then I say no need. She Replying me again and hold tight my Uniform saying, “you do Have a Bra? Don’t yoU?”

I push her back and bust into laughter- thinking how can she thought about those stuft! The guy that infront of us started turn back and told that girl that after few years she can wear. The Girl kept denied that it wasn’t for her but it’s was for me. For Crying out loud, he suddenly mention about G-string and don’t know what that mean but he promise that Year 5 girl that he will gave her a G-string on her birthday.Lastly, the bus came to the Destination where I should be – My home! When I try got out from the bus- Safiq gave a LAST advice- “Don’t sit with the Kids again.” I understand what they mean- they sometimes just annoy us and TOTALLy bug us!

Skip that word and shack Your Head! When I got home, mom started opened some song saying about don’t made decision too Quick In Love. After that song- it’s made me felt much carefully about picking about who I love and chose to be my bf.

I chat with my sister Today- Her Fist reply was “I was resting-” I quickly posted some advice to her as she haven’t started her new Course in her College yet. I managed to change my setting in MSN today as alot of people login today, I bet It’s going to be so Busy! Chat with 5 until 9 people. Even I alone can’t handle that much in the Chatroom even though I like it.

However I think it’s enough For me to say about today as I just done editing some pictures for this post. See ya tomorrow! I bet tomorrow it’s going to be fun because I free to surf into the Internet < YEAH!>