Same as usual- no one would ever visit my boring life blog ^_^, same with the typical type of attitude. However, mine goal in each blog post that I write was to archive a long story- just like a never ending story. I just like to write actually. But there no point of saying it however, no one would even care even though they say they would.

Again-it’s a typical attitude. Today I just finished my novel reading- it’s called “Becareful what you wish for”. It’s a quiet a interesting romantic and comedy novel; plus- I just been thinking of buying some new novels lately just to kept me from thinking about the upcoming SAT examination next year-. Gosh- I really need to study now, I had planned all the activities that I wanted to do for my summer holiday, but none of it I already done  XD. I

The list:

1) Go exercise in the park every morning.

2) study all my weak subject.

3) meet my all friends.

4) shop my most wanted things..

I haven’t done any of it- further more, I feeling very hesitated whenever I think about the list. I consider of crossing out all of them and don’t do neither of them. But I just has to stick to the damn plan. The damn plan..what have I been expected these days?

Today task is- packing stuff

I felt sleepy today- But tommorow I gotta go my parents village as visiting. I find it very amusing. Because- em, what do i had to tell you anyway?

However, my blog- still no one visit it, only a bunch of people who interested in my life would care to read it anyway. But I find my life is interesting, full with some experience. Even though I never experience anything within my lovelife. Sometime I worried if there anyone who like me? Because I don’t want to get lonely by myself by the age of 30 above, you know.

I so gotta go now, despite my laziness. I hurried to the bathroom for a loo. However good bye for now people- Hope you had a nice summer holiday! Same with me, I guess.

Report by unpatience Kaiyu.

I just love Fashion don’t you?

Today is the end of the week~ 1 week left then I just off to Vacation and gone back to my hometown. I am just so happy. The feeling of awaited those days kept me excited! But it’s seem like waiting one month seem so fast but waiting one week to go seem just so SLOW.. Don’t you think so? Especially when You forgot the time has passed so fast and you just wished it became longer¬!

Time don’t wait us, and you know¬! You want to grown up, Time will passed don’t push yourself too hard. If you ask me, I gotta say I don’t want to grow up! Being a teenager- messed up stuff and making silly mistake is just me, asking direction when I got lost between the middle, that just me, what else you could expect? What more you can expect? A simple girl just like me, who ain’t popular in school and doesn’t been care much, is just me~ I am just a girl who is watching the silly mistake and learned from them just like watching a movie even though is not me making those mistake but learning from them is a big learning and gave us a lot of knowledge. Furthermore, I love school sometimes, and you may not, you can’t say much because is just me. I love being around with my friends even though I didn’t been noticed, Is just me and you can’t say much, because you doesn’t even know my deepest secret. You don’t even know what knowledge I may had, I seem quiet and doesn’t always shared some stuff, because I just being self critical. I ridiculous and I know it! I seem dumb- I know¬! We human live in this world seem to judge from what they know but not what they seen inside us. I don’t care who I be friends with because I expect a good friend. A friend who knows me and doesn’t really care much about who I really are either. The one who will forgot the past and continue they life is the one who will truly get a hold of they life.

My life, your life? Today seem like the last day of the week, we had free time, no homework, Furthermore, teacher doesn’t even care much about what happen these day, and we had our last activities of our club. We eat and we talked. I walking around~ feel lively around people, seeing people who struggle to go on with they life seem like a small journey but within the soul, it’s actually very big. We laugh- we smile- we cry and we sad, we all got emotions. But we all doesn’t know the real feeling behide it. Some people cry because they happy or laugh. Some people feel sad because they being love, and some people being happy when they got hurt. We doesn’t know anything~ neither do they- life is like a puzzle, every small discovery that you just found out, is actually the pieces that will form your life.

Usually in the computer I spend my time watching clothes the fashion they wear and the clothes website. I love to see clothes design the texture and stuff. LOL~ I getting too much now ^^. I spend my time in computer watching those stuff and sometimes my mom accompany me. Watching what people wear and how they organize those, don’t you think it’s very important to wear good clothes and a sense of fashion sometimes for certain occasion?

Let just talk about clothes today ok?? I know I had been a long time that I didn’t login hhuh~however let just go on.

If fashion style I love Japan! I like Gothic Lolita style, I don’t know why but it’s cute furthermore the loose socks style is just so nice, it’s texture just nice! Can’t say more T.T but I know it’s nice!. However if Nice fashion design, I gotta choose Korea because there one Designer clothes that from Korea is my favourite one! Especially those who design for Teen Clothes- Don’t they look cute!! And cool of course ^^. If about accessories I gotta pick China instead, because they lot of cute accessories for you to wear and cheap.

That all I gotta say for now~ I had nothing to say now as I am just being lonely, and weird so bye I say.

WEIRD REPORT BY KAIYU.

Today is the day that is full with wonderful surprise and full with loneliness!

This morning, I actually want to change my hairstyle into like Japanese hair style but My mom cut off  the line and tell me to tie ponytail as always. Huh~ how dreadful!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love to be independence but My mom sometimes just want to tie my hair, ok what wrong with that? Well, I don’t like being helpless! I want to be strong so anyone can hold on to me and believe that I will help them. I just hope it will happen to me even though it’s just one person! It’s just damn enough for me!!!!!!!

However let just skip to the bus time, I went to the bus and sit at the back with Victoria and Noor. We talked and talked and talked until we arrive at school. At school, the gate were just opened. Today I can’t face it, the loneliness that went swept inside me when I was sitting in the science, seeing people went laughing and talking as if there nothing happen. Mrs Helen came saying that the Book day is going to be held on Thursday and when we came, we came as dressing as the book character that we like,  I smiled happily thinking about how fun it’s will be on Book day. But when I get back home, I turned to the Book day subject. Suddenly realised it’s wasn’t as easy it’s will be. Being the book character really need a huge supplies especially clothing. I didn’t have any book at home as I was just borrowing books from the library so I decided that I going to wear the pink dress on Thursday as the Pink Chamelion character which the girl wear a pink dress and I only has pink sailor uniform just the Japanese style. From this view, you can notice that I so in love with Japanese stuff especially they skirt design is just damn nice!!!!! However I still thinking what book character that I going to be, well I can’t not be a manga character because that what My teacher informed me. So I better off with the pink sailor uniform even though it look weird as the pink chamelion character!!

As usually I never went online in MSN. But today is special because I need to discuss about the Journalism Club stuff. I going to do some certificate and then helped Shatha with the Mystery teacher hints. Then after that, we went talk and talked. That all for now..

But still after all those chatting and I still can’t think about My book character!!!!Argh~ I rather don’t came but I love to try! Please somebody tell me what should I be or just suggest a story book character to me, could you?

REPORT DONE by KAIYU.

Question for everybody: What story book character should I be?

But what you see is may had been Your Illusion- Because the inner heart is always The Truth

Today is the day before school day which is tomorrow, when we came to tomorrow the time less to 3 weeks until holiday. The number seem so short- but the time seem so long for us to see, making us hard to predict the future..

These days- people just judge everything from what they had know example, seeing people wearing black clothes and you started whispering to your friend, that “person” is a Gothic. You can know that now – people is just judging people from their appearance and from what they know. Wondering about why Human is just damn ridiculous-full of curiosity in variety of things. Making us wonder- how should we become one day? Will we become just like them also? Will I always be the same person? Will I .. Can I.. Do I.. Every Question has it’s own explanation- and every explanation has it’s own reason. Fascinating, isn’t it? Life is just like a puzzle Quiz for us and we don’t even know how to solve it so we just had to continue and beard with all things before us.. Some people say that we should look ahead to the future first but then some people say, we should deal with stuff that happening to us now and don’t look in the past.

Saturday, 7th June, 6.45pm:

However now going to say about What did I do today-

Today is just the same as usual, wake up about 6 am then I actually went to bath and washed my selves before the bath water turned into hot -steam water because now is almost near summer season which the only cause of the water turned So hot. Making us felt sticky – and ARgh! I don’t know how to describe is however.

Everytime I get back home from the school -each day is just damn hot, Thing that I was always hope and expected for when I arrive from school is a nice long cool Bath during these hot summer day~ Days by days, I showered hot water- I felt tired but yet relaxed plus very sticky because you came to showered on a hot day and expected for a cool shower suddenly it’s just hot bath- and it’s produce more sweat and made you felt sticking. One day when I get back to Malaysia- I will just say , ” THANK GOD, ” after I showered in a cold bath of course with a little bit of hot water because we don’t want to feel to cold, do we?

l moved here, my face melanin may had produce a lot which cause more brown spot and dark to my skin I think so I better check my face everytime I get home- EVERYTIME of course. We don’t want to look so dark do we, because I don’t want my friends don’t recognize me anymore which is going to be a shame if they don’t recognize me.

Each day- week- time , I came to this blog, Hoping my friend OR visitors may came here and tell me about they daily schedule, sharing they life with me , so the point of this act may had been

=<OBSERVE HUMAN LIFE>=

Hear me now and this is the True me, I don’t know where I should go.. Life has been such a hard thing for me. To be honest, I don’t have an ambition, some people say that we must have an ambition in life but now I think I just should try my best to search it within my life. Today mom kept saying, ” Why you surfing the Internet NoN- Stop? Go read a book or something..” But I had done all of those and that why I surfing the internet because they no more activities that I can do left and others activities is just damn boring!

THAT ONLY FOR NOW BY KAIYU.

I love Daydreaming- ART- Science and not to mention story books. Sometimes when I totally concentrate on a certain stuff, to made myself more confidence on the result of my work, I will answer myself,” em,.. that right.” That all I do and my classmates that sat beside me will look astonishes and turned towards me and asking if I am okay. Then I laugh and looked at her and say, ” I am fine, I just love to say it.”

This is the Weirdest Part Of me- I know I am weirds- well not that weird just 20%.I love to be different sometimes, well sometimes not always, because sometimes you will felt left out and you suddenly tried to imitate them personality which you don’t belong to. So that why- I am very silents sometimes knowing that I will feel the emptiness in my heart but I will cured once I got back to my hometown’s- Where I belong to. I going to depart to KL on 28 June, we stay there about 2 days. That takes time for me to shopping of course, then we will depart from KL to my hometown accompanying by my siblings from KL. I can’t wait going back to my hometown, where those lovely accessories and cute clothes been modeled outside of the shop cover with the Glass mirror, showing how beautiful it is and the hard work of the people who work on it. A master piece- You gave everything you got, and you will always appreciate of what you had done, cherish it and always kept as a piece of memory that remind of your hard work.

I woke up about 6.oo in the morning, going downstairs, bend my back down on the sofa, watching the TV – with only one thing came into my mind, “I felt very sleepy..” I walk towards my study room, seeing an air bed besides the desk, I went there and slept silently- went towards my Imagination Dream Land – without a single snore. My mom called out my name, I woke up. She given me every task that I had to do for the morning,eg ; cook the rice, making the supper, washing the dishes,sweeping the floor, and washes my face.

Actually I quiet happy for myself- manage a blog like this to express my feeling. I bought a Diary actually but-I didn’t quiet updated it so It’s actually quiet a waste somehow, because I didn’t used it much.

However now I am checking some celebrity pics. Everybody got they own opinion on certain thing. Sometimes it’s too much for us to handle all those opinion but sometimes it’s okay to stand up for ourselves but the most nicest way is to respect each other decision instead of coming out and burst with actack!

END OF REPORT BY KAIYU

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Today I woke up in the morning about 7.50 am, thinking if I can sleep MORE.. rather than sitting around watching Tv during my spring Holiday. I walk towards the mirror organize my hair- made sure there no damage on my hair during this holiday XD.

Oh god!What thing that made you to torture me with today BORING SCHEDULE HOLIDAY! I know I can go studying if I want to during my Fine final Spring holiday (-_-) But really, I do need some Holiday stuff to do example, hanging out with my friends, surfing the internet and watching some NICE MOVIE! Sadly there has no fine movie that I watch, not to mention I just don’t have anything to do else. My siblings in MY doesn’t response anything to me anything, futhermore, they didn’t reply a damn single message I send and all they answer is , “o” or “ok, I know..” THAT ALL?!

To be honest, I love to daydreaming but My imagination can’t go too wild actually, because I will started to laughing all by myself,starting to acting like in my imagination and you might find this crazy of me but trust me, I am still normal but I am still weird as usual.

When I saw some manga – I started to think that even though people having relationship may 64% causes us to be having some physical touch. No offence but if I going to have a relationship and what I going to say to them first is ,“You know we love each other and that all matters, we don’t need to be called as a couple or boyfriend and girlfriend as people usually do..”

That is the USUAL answer you will get from me, as you know that me- is sometimes too Quiet and always keep you guessing what kind of person do I really are. However skip that, let move to the WEIRD part of me. I always started a imagination Right? Everytime I looked through something, I can gained some educational stuff- logical stuff that might been useful to my life even though I am an odinary teenager but sometimes some people doesn’t think the same stuff as me, they seem enjoying theyselves and some people trying to drew attetion. We can see and learn what would happen. As you know, I already done all those ridiculous stuff that my juniors had done so now My job is to observe people and never dare to do those mistake anymore.

It’s hard to say that I never had a boyfriend or a relationship or whatever, because sometimes we felt very envy for those could feel the warmth of Love like ” Do you know how it’s feel like” by Enrique. But Actually I quiet happy being with myself now, enjoying what is infront, You still had your family- friends, and now all you had to do is to accomplish what you have to do during your Young Age. Young Age is fun isn’t it? We have challenges every time and that always makes it interesting. If you already near Adulthood, sorry to say that it’s gotta be a tough luck sometimes,you had to choose your work- to begin your Life source, then you started to growing some saving and when the times came, You never know it’s time to start your own family. and that time you will say the same thing as you parents say always.

Starting from there, You know how much does the life really had changed- even your attitude towards things. You frequently think about the future, what might change next? We smile , slightly watching the sunset.. the birds went to the direction they always had, the birds always know where they had to go, they have they sense and know they purpose of living sometimes- they know what they live for and know where they should go. Sometimes human, spends times more in searching themselves first then they started to know the purpose of life and what does a real life looks like.. Being an Adult or mature, doesn’t mean you had to let go all those entertainment and act serious. You never know that even though you are a grown up, but you still a child sometimes.

This morning- I woke up about 5.35 am. Yawning and stretching my hand- walking towards the window, knowing how fun it is to be free from the Exam! I can relax a bit- wondering how fast the time had flowed- but there has a problem I don’t even know what I should do in my holiday, feel a bit empty maybe it’s because I had just too often being in the Study room, didn’t do anything about study didn’t made me self-content. I remember I always studying and hearing some songs, wondering how long does the test take until the last day came. Imagining how fun it will be when I drink my Frezz and eating any junk food I had after the test. But today is isn’t like the way I think of, I don’t know what I should do. Test just finish. What should I do? Studying? But I just should used this time to collect my favourite song as Fast as I could then I enjoy hearing the songs in my ipod.

I just though about doing a schedule in my holiday- weird huh? I actually WISHES if I could hanging out with my friends- but it’s much better hanging out with someone knows your interest eg family or best friends.However- after the 5 days SAT exam, I experience that English is a the hardest in the comprehension and I should study a lot more stuff in Maths and science? Study MORE.In the mean time, I eat the noodles as breakfast this morning with my family- I hardly can do any task, “LAZINESS APPEARANCE”

I think I just should be calm myself down- take a shower and planned my schedule for today . I updated my old websites- after done my special academy site. I check my crunchy roll account- searching for a new drama to watch but none of it appeared. Break my heart- the owner didn’t upload it. Still, I decided to update my blog that 4 days didn’t update. However- I really hope that my SAT result will be GREAT!

“I HOPE SO…..”

Yesterday I went to City Center- knowing that a Fashion is gotta start on 8.oo pm but I just had to go home on 7.15pm so BYE BYE to fashion show. However I bought a mini black cute skirt added with a white T-shirt which is very CHEAP! I so happy- I holding the shooping bag thinking when or where I gotta wear it! Ahh! I just feel i GOTTA SCREAM – well not that high, lastly I just wanted to added this Quote

= WINDOW SHOPPING INCREASE YOU KNOWLEDGE.=

These weather is so hot- warm but when you get up in the morning, you were hoping the fresh air to as nice boosting energy source but near my placed. Once you opened the window- you could smell the polluted Traffic smell.Every morning I waited outside the yard for bus- and that the smell I got so all I can do is – run back to the house watching through the tiny window waited for the bus to come forward and pick me up.

The stairs creaked- I looked behind me dad had come downstairs went straight to the kitchen- these all I could say- so bye bye I say- * walked slowy, waving my hand at you, breeze blowing my hair. My cheek went red as I saw you turned back- I cried silently wonder when you gotta answering me.* I woke up- and the first thing I ever say during that time is-

“OH- I JUST DREAM!”