It’s has been a very long time I Never been writing here it’s seem like it’s has been a year..even though I just left the computer for a week or so. When I getting back to Malaysia, my heart was full of excitement. Thinking about what were happening there while I was here wanting for the time flowed as usual. Now I realized that…. I was quiet dumb worrying too much stuff around me without even thinking of enjoying myself XD. When I was there, I was hoping that someone or something will greet me when I came back to my Hometown^^. But it’s not gotta happen, I thought, All I think of that time was to shout out about how I missed so much of my hometown, the attitude of people around me, the warmth of the weather in my mind. All has been just like a dream-. I woke up and realized I was still in the airplane, the length till KL is still about 8 km or so. I can’t continue my sleep that night. Because of some ridiculous brats behind my sits was so annoying, they just some teenagers- that just wanted attention by the way,where the heck is they parents?! They children kept pushing the damn button and release a large sound .. well that actually a “need help” thigy button. But they need not help because they are not OKU!!!
|||||||||However, that time was about 4.30 in the morning. I was watching the Guy that sit at the left of my front passenger. He is opening his laptop. Guess what video his watching?? It was Naruto! I never expecting an serious look guy would watching it!! After that- He continue watching the anime of the Great Rubber Boy!! Happy as usual, I opened my headphone and hearing all the Japanese song. Well, I am addicted to Japanese stuff . So – let just skip to the other part of the story.||||||
I was expecting a call from friends or a reply letter from my friends also but.. seem like everything was swept away like a dream.. A dream that kept me stay in this unknown world. All of this dream is my inspiration that kept me alive. Everytime I seem to do something just to let the time passed without me counting it everytime in my heart. I expected a lot of stuff for my returned. Everything- is just a dream, a fantasy but was this Friendship and memories was it just a – a play? The day I returned was the day was full with pouring water, the water that symbolized my awakening sense.
I felt very happy when I had returned to my own town- the place that I had been borned- added with the warmth of the surroundings that kept me alive. All that I been thinking was- can I help myself to forget the past and get on with the future. Without even get the feeling of getting hurt? Will I survived? Will everbody accept my – feelings? The truth always hurt- that what they told me, and that right. But sometimes we just had to accept it. I had sent so many messages to my dear friend Mona, but all I get was none replies but only a typical profile that I always saw. silents-with colors, motionless but accompany by the computer screen.
I watch the sky – the pouring rain made me felt alive nothing more that can made me relieve about my actions. Now all I need was a slight of happiness to kept my life continue. But I know that I will stay the Quiet profile within me, I will still be the mysterious girl that people always seen. Reading story books- making me felt that I started a new life, a adventurous, when We read a story book it’s seem like a diary of life which made us truly felt that it’s really happen when it wasn’t.I watch the sky- it’s typical as any sky that u seen around the world, but still- it’s accompanying us to go through our life, till the day we get old and die when we asleep with no pain that can been heard of.We just can’t take it anymore but Life is just like a RPG game, if u stuck in the middle of the game, surely u will lose, so kept going- but don’t use violent actions against other player. Huh- a RPG real life game? yeah, interesting but what could be more interesting than finding the true path where we should go right now- where should we go now?Just like the Garth Nix – the book of death say.
‘ Is the walker choose the path, or the path the walker??”
