Last minute sharing~

2 days left before the last day of school after tomorrow it’s going to be the last day of school. I don’t know what to say, should I be happy or sad? I going to be go back to my country and I going to be happy but being nothing at home and having vacation for 4 days before departing seem a sad thing. I don’t even know what to think about. I finished my novel about 2 times. And now I am memorizing the song for my class assembly. We gotta sing “Forever” by Chris Brown. So I memorizing it now.

I can’t smile. Which is the main problem about me, I can’t smile if they has nothing to laugh about. I just too serious sometimes. I love school. I do, you may think school is pointless but sometimes you think is very fortunate of you for having to learn the meaning of friendship and being fall in love, we gain that all in school, everything happen the same thing, you may hate it but there had a small thing that made you miss it. I love books. I can read a book that are until 400 pages in a day or an evening. I always being a book maniac lover, i GONE mad when I was searching the book that I like. But sometimes I prefer a interesting adventure Quest that full with magics¬!! I love music. When I hear a R&B music I always think if I can dance according to the beat. But, I just can’t.

I love Japan and Anime. Anime mostly from Japan making me know they culture and it’s also making me love Japan. I sometimes think if I could have a Japanese Friend but I know that I just going to be the lamest person they going to meet. Not that a lie actually, when I met them I going to be the first person to giggle the most. I am just too..fanatic. Well sometimes. However, here a little secret=I love my watch. My watch been buy on KLIA, same day as I going to depart to the outside country. That time there a bunch of Japanese student tour there. I just suddenly kept smiling and suddenly I notice there got a nice spiky hair-cute-guy who standing all alone. Gosh, If only I could ask his number. He seem quiet.

I hate being left out- and being underestimate.I know my personality ain’t that strong but I confidence on my sense of direction. emm.. not exactly but kinda. I don’t felt confidence in my love life, because I never had any but I going to wait- for the right person of course. I always seem to be quiet -quiet but actually I talk alot. I dunno why, but I seem to talk alot in the bust- more motivate XD and I don’t even know why.

Everyone has a little dirty secret. Let me tell you my- well I don’t really like somebody for real sometimes. I mean .. That I never ever fall in love, because I think I like them but not I love them and swear to gave them my heart just to be loyal and all that stuff.I just like they, well as a friend of course, as a person for entertain me, or acquaintance. I actually not even sure about all this feeling. My feeling is easy to change so my partner had to be.. someone. I not even tell you who I like now because I am not sure about my feeling. 2 People known this but not the other people. I gotta kick your ass if you tell anyone about my dirty little secret. LOL~

I love stuff~

I just love Fashion don’t you?

Today is the end of the week~ 1 week left then I just off to Vacation and gone back to my hometown. I am just so happy. The feeling of awaited those days kept me excited! But it’s seem like waiting one month seem so fast but waiting one week to go seem just so SLOW.. Don’t you think so? Especially when You forgot the time has passed so fast and you just wished it became longer¬!

Time don’t wait us, and you know¬! You want to grown up, Time will passed don’t push yourself too hard. If you ask me, I gotta say I don’t want to grow up! Being a teenager- messed up stuff and making silly mistake is just me, asking direction when I got lost between the middle, that just me, what else you could expect? What more you can expect? A simple girl just like me, who ain’t popular in school and doesn’t been care much, is just me~ I am just a girl who is watching the silly mistake and learned from them just like watching a movie even though is not me making those mistake but learning from them is a big learning and gave us a lot of knowledge. Furthermore, I love school sometimes, and you may not, you can’t say much because is just me. I love being around with my friends even though I didn’t been noticed, Is just me and you can’t say much, because you doesn’t even know my deepest secret. You don’t even know what knowledge I may had, I seem quiet and doesn’t always shared some stuff, because I just being self critical. I ridiculous and I know it! I seem dumb- I know¬! We human live in this world seem to judge from what they know but not what they seen inside us. I don’t care who I be friends with because I expect a good friend. A friend who knows me and doesn’t really care much about who I really are either. The one who will forgot the past and continue they life is the one who will truly get a hold of they life.

My life, your life? Today seem like the last day of the week, we had free time, no homework, Furthermore, teacher doesn’t even care much about what happen these day, and we had our last activities of our club. We eat and we talked. I walking around~ feel lively around people, seeing people who struggle to go on with they life seem like a small journey but within the soul, it’s actually very big. We laugh- we smile- we cry and we sad, we all got emotions. But we all doesn’t know the real feeling behide it. Some people cry because they happy or laugh. Some people feel sad because they being love, and some people being happy when they got hurt. We doesn’t know anything~ neither do they- life is like a puzzle, every small discovery that you just found out, is actually the pieces that will form your life.

Usually in the computer I spend my time watching clothes the fashion they wear and the clothes website. I love to see clothes design the texture and stuff. LOL~ I getting too much now ^^. I spend my time in computer watching those stuff and sometimes my mom accompany me. Watching what people wear and how they organize those, don’t you think it’s very important to wear good clothes and a sense of fashion sometimes for certain occasion?

Let just talk about clothes today ok?? I know I had been a long time that I didn’t login hhuh~however let just go on.

If fashion style I love Japan! I like Gothic Lolita style, I don’t know why but it’s cute furthermore the loose socks style is just so nice, it’s texture just nice! Can’t say more T.T but I know it’s nice!. However if Nice fashion design, I gotta choose Korea because there one Designer clothes that from Korea is my favourite one! Especially those who design for Teen Clothes- Don’t they look cute!! And cool of course ^^. If about accessories I gotta pick China instead, because they lot of cute accessories for you to wear and cheap.

That all I gotta say for now~ I had nothing to say now as I am just being lonely, and weird so bye I say.

WEIRD REPORT BY KAIYU.

What u think is what you see!!!!!!

Today is the day that is full with wonderful surprise and full with loneliness!

This morning, I actually want to change my hairstyle into like Japanese hair style but My mom cut off  the line and tell me to tie ponytail as always. Huh~ how dreadful!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love to be independence but My mom sometimes just want to tie my hair, ok what wrong with that? Well, I don’t like being helpless! I want to be strong so anyone can hold on to me and believe that I will help them. I just hope it will happen to me even though it’s just one person! It’s just damn enough for me!!!!!!!

However let just skip to the bus time, I went to the bus and sit at the back with Victoria and Noor. We talked and talked and talked until we arrive at school. At school, the gate were just opened. Today I can’t face it, the loneliness that went swept inside me when I was sitting in the science, seeing people went laughing and talking as if there nothing happen. Mrs Helen came saying that the Book day is going to be held on Thursday and when we came, we came as dressing as the book character that we like,  I smiled happily thinking about how fun it’s will be on Book day. But when I get back home, I turned to the Book day subject. Suddenly realised it’s wasn’t as easy it’s will be. Being the book character really need a huge supplies especially clothing. I didn’t have any book at home as I was just borrowing books from the library so I decided that I going to wear the pink dress on Thursday as the Pink Chamelion character which the girl wear a pink dress and I only has pink sailor uniform just the Japanese style. From this view, you can notice that I so in love with Japanese stuff especially they skirt design is just damn nice!!!!! However I still thinking what book character that I going to be, well I can’t not be a manga character because that what My teacher informed me. So I better off with the pink sailor uniform even though it look weird as the pink chamelion character!!

As usually I never went online in MSN. But today is special because I need to discuss about the Journalism Club stuff. I going to do some certificate and then helped Shatha with the Mystery teacher hints. Then after that, we went talk and talked. That all for now..

But still after all those chatting and I still can’t think about My book character!!!!Argh~ I rather don’t came but I love to try! Please somebody tell me what should I be or just suggest a story book character to me, could you?

REPORT DONE by KAIYU.

Question for everybody: What story book character should I be?

wHat you see is what you know..But

But what you see is may had been Your Illusion- Because the inner heart is always The Truth

Today is the day before school day which is tomorrow, when we came to tomorrow the time less to 3 weeks until holiday. The number seem so short- but the time seem so long for us to see, making us hard to predict the future..

These days- people just judge everything from what they had know example, seeing people wearing black clothes and you started whispering to your friend, that “person” is a Gothic. You can know that now - people is just judging people from their appearance and from what they know. Wondering about why Human is just damn ridiculous-full of curiosity in variety of things. Making us wonder- how should we become one day? Will we become just like them also? Will I always be the same person? Will I .. Can I.. Do I.. Every Question has it’s own explanation- and every explanation has it’s own reason. Fascinating, isn’t it? Life is just like a puzzle Quiz for us and we don’t even know how to solve it so we just had to continue and beard with all things before us.. Some people say that we should look ahead to the future first but then some people say, we should deal with stuff that happening to us now and don’t look in the past.

Saturday, 7th June, 6.45pm:

However now going to say about What did I do today-

Today is just the same as usual, wake up about 6 am then I actually went to bath and washed my selves before the bath water turned into hot -steam water because now is almost near summer season which the only cause of the water turned So hot. Making us felt sticky - and ARgh! I don’t know how to describe is however.

Everytime I get back home from the school -each day is just damn hot, Thing that I was always hope and expected for when I arrive from school is a nice long cool Bath during these hot summer day~ Days by days, I showered hot water- I felt tired but yet relaxed plus very sticky because you came to showered on a hot day and expected for a cool shower suddenly it’s just hot bath- and it’s produce more sweat and made you felt sticking. One day when I get back to Malaysia- I will just say , ” THANK GOD, ” after I showered in a cold bath of course with a little bit of hot water because we don’t want to feel to cold, do we?

l moved here, my face melanin may had produce a lot which cause more brown spot and dark to my skin I think so I better check my face everytime I get home- EVERYTIME of course. We don’t want to look so dark do we, because I don’t want my friends don’t recognize me anymore which is going to be a shame if they don’t recognize me.

Each day- week- time , I came to this blog, Hoping my friend OR visitors may came here and tell me about they daily schedule, sharing they life with me , so the point of this act may had been

=<OBSERVE HUMAN LIFE>=

Hear me now and this is the True me, I don’t know where I should go.. Life has been such a hard thing for me. To be honest, I don’t have an ambition, some people say that we must have an ambition in life but now I think I just should try my best to search it within my life. Today mom kept saying, ” Why you surfing the Internet NoN- Stop? Go read a book or something..” But I had done all of those and that why I surfing the internet because they no more activities that I can do left and others activities is just damn boring!

THAT ONLY FOR NOW BY KAIYU.

Live street band

Actually I searching for new songs in youtube, so I just type some live street band. And I found out some nice song (^-^) and I was delighted to share.They from Japan btw.

Kariya band

Cimopi Band

Here they site :http://www.geocities.jp/cimopi_music/ribbon-index/page2.htm

6/6 Day Who knows more?

Who knows more? Where does life lead us? We might think about it when we just doing something wrong. I realize that my mom have spoken to me more than 2 million words that came out throught her mouth during  she bubbling about my stupid mistake that I had done. I never do anything worse than just lying to my mom. That all, it’s all happen when I was in Year 2 still a small child though but I lie a lot , for I was still small doesn’t know much about consequences of my action.

It’s all happen when I was been told by my mom to gave the money to the bus driver where I was so afraid and couldn’t give to he at the end. I just holding the body to the end. At school, I was spending the money with my friend in the canteen which my friend suggest about it. So I accept it, just to get the amount of money dissolves before my eye. I felt guilty when I get home all I know that I was lying that I had gave to the bus driver and I was supposedly just too dumb that time. I was lying through  all the difficulties  that I just face and finally I was safe. Then the feeling of guilty was too hard for me too hold until I was telling her the truth when she beat me in the room. Totally that time I realize that  I not suppose to tell lies from the start just to get safe.  Just like the malay idiom, ” sepandai pandainya, tupai menlompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah juga,” It’s mean, even you so smart to pull that off, but lastly you will fail it also. Sometimes, “The truth always hurt us”.. Who knows what might happen in the end so we just have to beard it till the end.

What might just come in the end may just too hard for us to predict. All we know that we just have to beard all the challenges that infront of us, the outcome is the stuff that we put through our life as a income; Just like the band interest “thinggy” operation.

For now, as a teenager, all we known that is that our mom is stressed and in all ways there only one way for they to release stress, that is find your mistake and yell at you. That what my mom looks like if you know and she is the giving advice typer whether it’s had nothing to do with some stuff lastly she may had to connect some stuff through it. I don’t know how she managed it but I know what kind of person she is like. She like everything organize being the perfect family just like in the magazines, cared for each other and cared about your studies even it’s not like she expected but as long you had done your best, she had forgive but trust me, when she forget her principles of life like we had always recognized through her attitude, lastly she end up being a selfless defense and love to laugh and sometimes the time she made jokes is not in the right time. And I grinned silently for her mistake that time.. Who knows more what could happen? Who knows more?..

REport by Kaiyu in Saturday - holiday day? not yet.

Time Bus Madness!

Yeah Welcome to Everybody~ same as always this week, still sneezing. Today “Captain” of the voice didn’t get the change to ride the bus to go back home because he feeling not very well. Huh~~ today is Year 3 assembly- but it’s kinda been delay because of the electricity stuff that been happening in our new school. Let just hope this going to be a Adventure, shall we?

However, let us talk about feeling. How do we know we have real relationship one day? Do we will realize it somehow? Sometimes it’s just a like not love, or a puppylove. I am a kinda of a person who doesn’t really hoping to facing a relationship. Think about how you react, you will just being nice infront of the person you like. To be honest, you must be your true self so you won’t be that uncomfortable of who they are when you being around them. Do you know what? Majority of my friend already experience what teenager life would be, how does it’s felt having a relationship? I think it’s .. giving responsibilities to us which annoy me a little bit somehow, having someone to love and to love someone back it’s a good thing but sometimes we think if they actually perfect to each other. Let look in other perspective, good looking? yeah, so they kinda perfect in looks. But if in other perspective, how about personality? Nah~ Not they perfect together. You can see that they seem. Huh hardly to say. See what I mean? Everything is just!! Damn hard. No pain No game.

I am not talking about somebody now, I just saying my opinion. No offence just feeling bored right now. I just really need something to do right now!

Let get back to the bus Journey!

Now- Yesterday, bus was broken so was changed into more darker bus with window which is dark also. Somehow, it’s felt nicer using the new bus. Because nobody could see what you doing inside the bus. So actually, what were you doing in the bus? Argh, For god sake, why would I need to know about what do you do in the bus because now I am the one whose suppose saying about what I DO IN THE BUS. However let just skip when I walk into the bus. The first seat was booked for the siblings, and the ” Manager of the people in the bus” were sitting in the second row and I was looking hesitated of where I should seat, well I was the 3rd person to go back home so I need to seat at a nearer places. Which I was decided to seat at the second row with the manager. I love to talk so .. actually it’s not wrong to talk a lot with a guy right? Does someone will think in other perspective?? However let not think about negative stuff,let they think what they want to think just to increase they imagination.

The 2 Sibling came into the bus and they sat at the last row. Victoria came in and sat besides me,. so we all started the journey. The German girl which been called as ” the little girl” sat at the first row. All the conversation was started with me asking Victoria of why she was so quiet well she was continue to quiet while I and the Manager was talking but then I do the friend handshake just like in the hannah motana so I do it with Victoria. Without I realize… It’s boosting her talkactive-ness power UP! She and I doing the handshake then the two guys in the seat with the driver started to say , “Victoria, SHUT UP!”

Which Victoria seem don’t that care about it and kept on doing it with me while I was kept myself from coughing because I don’t want to look too sick infront of the people in the bus. But then, I and the manager talks more and more and more than Victoria getting and more and more ANNOYING. lol~ funny. Then I threw her jack to “1 Sibling” which at the back and he say that, ” Good, I been waiting for this for a long time.” Then we all laugh which Victoria and ” 1 sibling ” VS ! Who win? 1sibling! COngratulations! Not to mention that happen when she took off my hair band than the “manager” help me to take off Victoria hair band while I trying to take my hair band back. After we managed to get it, the ” manager” seem proudly to say, ” I am the manager to the people in the bus,.” Then ” 1 sibling” just nodded and answered , ” yeah, you right. “I just smiled for his Imagination dream and that it. However without all the fuss the time would be so slowly but now it’s seem it’s too fast. And I actually realize that I going home by now. During the journey to my home destination, and during Victoria was mad at me. I talk Chinese which the “manager” seem to encourage me to talk again. then I say in Chinese that he is making me to say Chinese again which I say that , ” is quiet a boring task to do during Victoria is angry at me.” and I was directly was saying about the “manager” and he wouldn’t understand then I explained to him that he don’t know that I was talking about he. lol~ then I was teaching him how to say “boring” in Chinese.

~NoW i Had arrive at home, so good bye My dear friends!!! 20 more days, then I off to VACATION!~

The others side of my Thought~

Well people kept saying that Gemini is very talkactive- loved in flirting game- and always played to be hard to get- and always have the inconstant feeling or environment and it’s need something to interesting her. Well I don’t know if I like that somehow however, I do love my zodiac personality it’s seem interesting.

But today is just damn hard day for me talk because I had a cold and my ear can’t hear very clearly so I had to talk very loud sometimes. Not to mention - after a few days than I am off to home town which is a very exciting for me, even though I felt bored but going back to my originally came is the best because We suits ourselves easily.Not to mention, when I ” Achh~oo!” Everybody turned around and looked at me then the Korea girl laugh at my sneeze, I smile gently at her and feeling embarrassed for my Sickness of course, I just hope I get well soon and gained a very good result in my SAT exam. Just hope~

Somehow, the day before yesterday, my friend were asking if I and Epothus is addicted to anime. Epothus say something which I can’t hear very clearly then my friend nodded and started to say, ” Do you know that my cousin who is 18 years old is still watching anime..” *in a teasing tone I think*

Then I skip into the conversation and say that, ” What wrong with that? Everybody..” (I was trying to say everybody got their own interest and she just shouldn’t just judge everybody by their interest, and trying to act like a adult because our time will slowly walk towards the adulthood so no need to fast to fall into adulthood just because you going~ )
But she cut off the line by saying, ” I just .. I just..” She looked at me in the eye, feeling hesitated, and I think that she might thought that I was angry at her which I was trying to express my opinion. Suddenly, other people came and change the subject which is a good thing because the atmosphere was quiet tense that time.

Trust me, Gemini do have inconstant mood but they most likely don’t feel like people who isn’t quiet a listener sometimes. However sometimes I ssaw people is trying to be someone else just to try to be in the group. Well I actually is being myself, being quiet if that not my topic, futhermore, I like anime and people is just seem to be more into dating stuff, and love, plus gossip.

I know Teenager Life is not quiet to be easily like a childhood time. No offence ok? I just saying what happen in my daily life- The Truth always the hardest.~

Life us just always had challenges. which according with the idiom ” No pain, No game”. My oldest sister, she actually still in college, and she change the course but the course letter were so late to arrive and finally she decided to go to work. My parents told her to search for other university instead of going to work as my parents still can afford budget and improvement to the family. But my sister kept saying that, “stop forcing me doing what I don’t want to do.”

However let just moved on to my favourites of the week!

Favourites of the week: “Jody, My friend.” song XD

Review: my classmates, Jody made that song which he sang it and MN sang it and suddenly it stuck in my head XD.

Do you notice that girls more likely to use “HOT” on guys that seem attractive, but I more likely to use ” CUTE”. Toma Ikuta which is My favorite actor of the year after watching his acting in Hana kimi, he really good at it. I admire his acting but I more likely admire Johnny Depp if its come to changing personality which I hardly recognized him in other movies when I saw he acting.

Finally~ funny stuff happen and quiet interesting. During music class, we learned how to act. Me, Ami, ST, and MJ as a group performed what in the script. I was the first one to talk which the line is ” Who say- You could come in?”

Which when we performed in infront of our classmates, I just went out with a frightened opening plus with a hight pitched shouting voice accompany by a sudden hit on the floor with my feet saying- ” Who- say you could come in?” I didn’t felt anything that time just act lol~ my friend gave me a review - I suddenly shouted which made everyone seem puzzled. I was quiet happy when she say that because it made every attention came towards our performances and would not fall asleep and being dis-respect-ful like MN say.

That all I can say for now, who know where life going to lead us furthermore, remember one act can change the whole situations which mean every choice has it’s own consequences so think carefully of what you have to do- Today Report done by “sneezing Kaiyu”.

~Back To Hy-per!~

Today and yesterday on 28 and 29 May, I am just so hyper! I laugh when we just like chasing something- then I laugh when I say something funny well quiet loud actually, after I laugh I just cover my mouth and looked at  people around me.

Then in the morning, I walk to the waiting area which outside the school- and it’s empty, so I yell out,  ” WOO!!!”When I met my friends, I say that I think I am changing now into quiet a crazy person! However, in Geo period class, we played a game called ” 2 truth and a lie”. Quiet fun actually- you just need to guess which is a lie. Well my list of statement is like this:

1) I swim very well.

2) I can change my personality in a split.

3) I allergic to prawns and crabs.

Which is the lie? Number 1 statement.  There some guy say that I had told him, then I looked puzzled, thinking if I ever tell anyone about it. Not to mention, I was very happy because there 4 weeks to go then I’M OFF! (to where? Holiday!)  Now my mission - is to search for my old classmates friends profile! However, I am just lazy to do some revision right now,. all you can heard now is. “Natalie do this-Natalie do that!” SOUND OF YELLING FROM MY PARENTS.. Trust me, that all you can hear from my parents if you in a holiday!

By the way, I really can change my personality into split-sometimes, I am quiet, then I am crazy, then I annoying then I’m a total dumb ass- annoying girl sometimes!

You might had think that this blog is just the same blog like any other blog that about life or something. Sadly to say- it’s the same, like this we can recall what actually had happen in the life and we exactly remember every second that happen in our life - cherish our young life- spend it- but however we just had to fulfill our needs and purpose and find ourselves during this current life-scene. We know we just could  not spin the time again and go back where we left out before. I know I sometimes left a lot of those teenager stuff- however I don’t quiet care because I actually still thinking quiet largely about thing around us- I can’t find my Mr.Right as there no one has the thing that I wanted in them.

~Do you know that  I always  a innocence person? LOL~ just kidding, we aint perfect, everybody makes mistake and that making the clever site came out of them. Sorry I just gotta go, my dad gotta use the computer while he is thinking about spending his time with his language learning and chess board.~

Massive dIlussion?

Today Miss Lindy didn’t came- futhermore, mine science teacher didn’t came also.I don’t know why- I JUST wish that our math teacher been change into a teacher who doesn’t look more at the physical properties- same just like the idiom called, ” DON’T JUDGE A BOOK BY IT’S COVER.,” Mine math teacher seem to underestimate me because of my lack english speaker, so she gave me a 3-4 paper. Not to mention, every student in paper 2 almost the most majority is fail but I was passed because I got above 30 and it’s made me feel like left out, you know? The feeling that we can’t stood out to be proud of what we are. The thing is, teacher usually cherish the most smart/ normal student because they don’t want to teach something over and over again to the more- THEY just don’t want to work somehow!. NO OFFENCE- I just talking about my math teacher.

Hard to say- I just think that most of my friends seem to be quite proud of themselves, me, myself just have to hide all the feelings of being proud and just think the consequences of the choices I made, slowly look up to the future of what it had become.

I don’t know what happen today- I just felt very empty.. the emptiness within me. For god sake- why don’t the teachers have an observation on their teaching like in my old school- to know what kind of the teacher would like, or the teaching, the attitude, the motivation, despite all those laziness! You must know what is the best for you Generations! For the future!

Okay now- let just stopped about my opinion.- somehow today is just seem motionless to me. I didn’t run into the school yard and suddenly smash the wall down- well not the wall however. I just don’t get it- I didn’t have the feeling of getting up and ready to opened our minds and learned something. Come on! 4 weeks from now, I will be off to HOLIDAY! Yahoo, I got nice result in France and hoping my science and English will be a nice result too!  I just hope!!!

Sad to say People, I think I didn’t let off my imagination run wild today, I seem to be writing shorter and shorter and you can see, futhermore with basic and no purpose of writing, and just a simple life of every teenager is facing right now. It’s may not be all the teenager seem to be facing the same stuff because some of them may facing they largest challenges. We face challenges to be much stronger than we are now- so we can get used to the environment, that full with high spirits that encourage us to battle on! LIve on- till the next day. REmember the spartans movie? It’s just like the history, I like history actually because it’s interesting. THe past life that happen before us! The memories still stuck! I just think if people will still remember me if I dead somehow,.LOL I can’t say about death right now.

However, Let us see how does the life change- we do hate bad people sometimes right?But if we look at the other perspective view,  I remember the first thing my sister say, “Even though we wanted to have good world and environment, still, we still need bad people so the world won’t be so full with bunch of people same with the natural disaster and why they been invented.. In the other word mean: Everything event happen, has it’s own purpose..”